Mi dispiace, ma none possibile per me cosi......

I could change. I could be a different person. I could not care so much about things that matter to me. I could go through everyday just with the memory of a goldfish. I could be someone who takes things less seriously. I could listen to all the opinions of me from so called friends and act the way they want me to. I could go out and party every night and not think twice about responsibilities. I could forget about all things important to my health and not exercise so that I completely let myself go. Be fat, dumb, and happy.

I could force myself to not think of my future and let what happens happen. I could forget about pain and disappointments throughout my life. I could probably learn not to hold grudges and let people walk all over me. I could treat other people with no thoughts of how that would make them feel. I could be cold and never show how I really feel. I could stop keeping things bottled up inside until they tear me up. I could turn off my emotions of anger, sadness, love, joy, disgust, anticipation, and happiness like the flip of a light switch. I could take a path with my photography that would make me become someone I am not.

Some of these things I simply wish I COULD do. Others, I simply choose NOT to. Because, that simply wouldn't be me.

You can judge me, you can try to tear me down, you can try to turn others against me, you can make me out to be the bad guy, you can hate me, you can make me out to be crazy, you can criticize my physical and mental misgivings, you can try to drive me to the brink..... but...

In the end, I'm not going anywhere, because I've been through it all and I'm still standing...... I'm here and all I want is to be happy. That's it, no fighting, no drama, no war of words, no back stabbing, no competition for the worlds attention, and no keeping score. Life is a zero sum game.

However long it lasts, I will always know I've given everything my heart and soul can possible endure. If that's not good enough for some people then so be it. I'm not here for them, I'm here for me. Peace.

Steve

"About all you can do in life is be who you are. Some people will love you for you. Most will love you for what you can do for them, and some won't like you at all." -Rita Mae Brown